breathe
being busy now is not a bad thing i realised. at least it keeps me busy & puts me away (not entirely) from thinking stuff that compromises with my very much needed focus and drive now. being busy & to be bogged down with so many other (not very positive) issues truly suck a whole deal. even during the few hours of pathetic slp i can afford, my mind is still so active even though im so drained.ive finally concluded my last formal presentation today with 3 very impressive discussants guest starring. they had a long list of very impressive achievements to their name. we had the CEO of some investing company and angel capitalist, the CEO of Esplanade and the Director of deutsche bank. their constructive critics only reinforced how fcuking smart they are. 3 more weeks to the end of the semester & im really so sick of sch already.
the insights u gain from your peers, proff, research materials, credible discussants not only shape how u perceive, but it reinforces ur perceptions to a level of higher credibility. for instance, going through Psychology classes, u learn and understand humans more, what it means when people say or do something. Or even to refute something they hv said because u know for a fact that it can be attributed to some fundamental errors of human. it is interesting and it not only promotes self-awareness and objectivity, it also helps when u take all these concepts and proven studies out of classrooms and apply it to ur daily life. it conflicts and mind-fucks u when u meet people who are ignorant to such knowledge when ure in the process of negotiation.
u realise how people can be so self-serving without realising it for themselves in their daily speeches and actions. the redeeming factor is that, because ure aware of how people are prone to errors, u tend to be more forgiving and attribute errors to these divine revelations of human. the fuckup factor is that too much of forgiving fucks u up as a person & allow people to take u for granted. what does the bigger person get? ans:expanding blood vessels that finally burst one day. having said that, i second on the thought of majoring psych simply because ignorance is bliss, sometimes. the inability to form perceptions and 'judge' people helps in many aspects. denial is a gd strategy to be applied, not when it gets dysfunctional.
sch cannot be more stressing. but it can be fulfilling becoz u feel so empowered with knowledge and all, BUT the deal is that i seldom feel this way abt sch. haha. dammit. my mom recently mentioned how ive become less of a happy and optimistic person. which i agree totally. events that happpened last year had a huge impact, and assessment of integrity in people have generally declined. as u grow older, experience the fuckups things/pple that can go wrong in ur life, its only natural to take a more cynical and suspective outlook towards anything in general. my psyc proff reaffirmed what ive said too. haha. so i dun care if u disagree with me anot. ure in delusion if u do. haha.
i sooo need a getaway after my exams. supposed to go bkk but it has to be in a riot state now. wusuup with thaksin? wusup with burning of lee hsien loong and his wife (not literally tho)? as one may argue that it was a legitimate acquisition blah blah blah and may take into offence with the buring of our beloved merlion, sg govt should have anticipated this when they decided to takeover Shin Corp. it is after all their national asset and what obvious implications do we need to consider when the takeover reflects a foreign dominance? ans: full of angry & sugar high level of thais protesting lah. making demands that seem quite duh. u know sg govt will not give up Shin corp. their demands to retract the entire takeover make it seem like a zara shoe went wrong and demand for a refund. its not as simple as a char kway teow transaction lor.
"the sg govt definitely need to take classes on business, govt and society". a passing statement from my proff.
anyway, not that i really care much of the politics now. in the current state i am, i take the stand of a fatalist (rilek one korner attitude). i just need the riot to stop soon. i want my trip to proceed as planned.
ok, enough of crap.
i need to nap now.
posted by P. @ 3/30/2006 02:46:00 PM
12 Comments:
i know what u mean man. i became a more "beaten down" and less confident person after "higher" education. :S
anyhoo, bout thailand, look at how sg approached au...buying optus and that internal airline. aussies also comprained man.
i wonder if ALL thais feel that way bout singapore, or is the protests against the shin corp fiasco with sg and demands for ousting thaksin just organized by his adversaries as an excuse to overthrow him?
hee i just talking nonsense ba, stuck on this bloody island in the west and cut off from the rest of the world (no time for tv or newspapers) and when i switch on the radio - every song is new to me
damn. :S
pee.. as a friend.. i can only offer u my sincere and genuine adivce regarding the issues at work.. its nice to catch up with u.. but honestly, i prefer your old look..
wah sehhhh pee like become soooooooooo intelligent!!!
kindle: u never fail to be as idiotic as b4, if not more actually. ha. tk it as a compliment ok.
anonymous friend: load urself with 6 modules next sem, ill counsel u.
scum: its not abt being less confident a person. u acquire more knowledge only to be able to assess a person more accurately than before. Many pple are blinded by their own ego & wan to believe they are high on self-awareness but reality doesnt spk much.
hahaha i just thought that i've gotten so used to crap environments that i dont expect that much from anything anymore!
wah political debate btw the intellectuals. Cheers P. U're really gettin so smart, i can see u as a politician in future.
ur latest post feel kinda like an essay for school.
Nevertheless its still nice to knw hw u feel.
Cheers!!!
"u acquire more knowledge only to be able to assess a person more accurately than before."
i can relate to your statement. The more u knw, the more fcuked the world seem.
oh well :S
Hello.. I have been there done that.. I understand... gal.. since its our exams.. just take a deep breath n leave the rest to the guy up there..bear in mind that "words" can be a two-edged sword.. it opens boundless opoortunities.. it too brings affiliations crumbling to their foundation.. use your knowledge wisely dear friend..
Wah wah wah.. Your blog like you one.. Tiam tiam sit one corner relec.. then suddenly -PWak- All so cheem words come out... The last time you did that... I got a heart attack.. Your eyes sparkled... and that was dinner for us at crown.. Haha.. Now.. you're so profound... And so busy.. Too busy for me man.. But I understand la.. Hor.. Sayang.. Missing you. Call me or msg me when you are free....
I must have striked lottery!!!
(anyway, i havent even read ur entry...just that...I MUST HAVE STRIKED LOTTERY!)
~Dera
ok...now i've read the gist of it!
you sound as whiny as before, just more in the political way....why why why?! have u really GROWN UP that much?!
can be abit annoying...cus it sounded like any hard news when i flip over the herald tribune! Abit too much for me to swallow at 10AM! maybe i'll be back after a cuppa to read ur entry properly! but meanwhile...din u know that humans are very complicated pieces of shit that GOD the ALMIGHTY had put in so MUCH effort to create?!
so ... trust noone but urself and GOD Weeeee....
oh yah..i think ur pysc prof, made u a pyscho! but i still love u lah!
Take great care k babe!!! what doesnt kill u make u stronger...u always tell me that...so now's my turn!!!!!
Good luck in ur exams!!!!
lolita
glad to see u back in action! and yeah, it seriously sounds like an essay i'll do on. very not-so-prisca-style. haha anyway miss u babe! see u soon!
-gillian
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